Friday, December 28, 2007

Remembering Sarajevo

I went and saw the Trans-Siberian Orchestra on Wednesday. As always it was an awesome show. Me and my dad go every year. It's half a joke, half truth, but we say we go because we enjoy the show and forget how the story ends. Come mid year I can't ever for the life of me remember what the Angel finds. He's on a mission to find something that humans value but can't touch.

The other thing I enjoy about the show, in a weird way, is it never fails to make me cry like a little bitch. It's true, I lose it every year. Lemme tell you why. The Angel flies over Sarajevo, and sees scars on the land - which, interesting historical point: after the war the people painted the holes in the ground from bombs and stuff with read paint. As he's flying over, he comments/thinks/whatever that he's listened to God closely many many times and had never once heard him say to kill in his name.

The Bosnian War started in 1991, or thereabouts. I was ten years old. I watched the entire thing on the news station at school called Channel 1. By the time it ended I knew the concept of ethnic cleansing. I learned there were places in the world were people killed you because of your background, heritage, race, religion, sex, any reason a person could muster to separate you out from this concept of 'pure'. The Siege of Sarajevo is to date the most heart breaking war time event that's happened in my life time.

By the end of this war, though I learned the concepts around what was going on, no one could answer my one question of Why? Why do people still kill in the name of God? Why are people still killed because of their ethnicity? Why has anyone ever been killed because of their religion?

None of these questions have ever been answered to my liking. I think that's why I cry. I remember when the open air markets were attacked - the Serbs killed civilians on purpose. I remember the pictures of the bombings, the destruction, the rape of countless Muslim women.

I know I don't quite know all the political atmosphere or exactly what was going on. Even still, there's no reason that fits within humanity, or within my human element, that makes me sit back and say, "Oh. Okay. I get it now."

I'm not sure how this ties in, just foreign affairs stuff, but the other day former prime minister of Palestine Benazir Bhutto was killed. She was shot twice and then a suicide bomber set off a bomb and killed about 20 of her supporters. She. A woman was a prime minister. In Palestine. Hopefully not the only female leader in that part of the world. But, she is gone now. This story disturbed me. She spent eight years in exile and it was just within the last year she returned.

If you ever get a chance, at least listen to Christmas Eve in Sarajevo, now that you know a bit about what happened. Even without the narration I get teary eyed.

*EDIT* My bad. Benazir Bhutto was the former Prime Minster of Pakistan, not Palestine. Thanks Loren. :D

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

It's Christmas!

Merry Christmas, everyone! It's been a while since I posted - busy busy!

I got fleece jammie bottoms. :D I wonder who else got me super cool jammie bottoms.. >.>

Oh, and I got a Starbucks gift card (lots of brownie points to Katy), a coffee cup, perfume, this scenting thing, a big candle holder thing, a box full of love, a new computer chair, and lots and lots of Christmas cards. And I saved stuff for later today.

Kinda I feel bad, I wasn't able to get any one else very much. I got little things for people.. I found some really pretty ceramic beads at Earth Art that fit within my budget.

Anyway, I am the sleepeh. Wanted to spread some cheer. Oh, and, it's a bit late, but, for my friends/readers who have kiddos I found this: http://www.noradsanta.org/en/home.htm
Well.. *I* didn't _find_ it, it was posted on the KXAN's website. Maybe book mark it for next year, it's real neat. You can use Google Earth to track Santa. :D And it's got videos and games (I think that was a game..), Santa facts. All that stuff. It's neat, I need to sic my nephew on it. Anyway, Enjoy!

Merry Christmas!!!

Saturday, December 8, 2007

More Poetry

A friend of mine's been trying to get me back into open-mic poetry. Well, he's not all like, "YOU HAVE TO!" More like, he suggested it, I used to do it and really enjoyed it.. so it's more his suggestion and my brain trying to talk me into it. So I've been digging around in all my poetry books and trying to get some material together. I found this poem I've been looking for for literally years. I'm posting it for your pleasure.


Desire

I looked inside myself today,
And found my void
Filled with love and beauty.

I watched the wind play across the trees,
And dance with Herself -
I realized the mundane is joyful.

I saw a pair of lovers,
walking hand in hand, giving to each other
The love the ocean gives her children.

I saw Death.
She touched the wind
And reminded me of life's confusion.

I saw all of these things,
And now, in the darkness,
I think of the coming dawn.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

More Fun With Ubuntu

So, I've been working on getting all these bits working right the last few days. Damn I love it. Be one with the command line and you're computer will love you more than your own mother does.


The cool things I've done:


I have a 3D Cube rotating desktop, on which I can work on four difference spaces. When I get into doing shit, that's helpful. This desktop is transparent, so I can see the other spaces through the one I'm working on. I need to get a capture desktop program to make a video and show you guys. It's really awesome.


I timed my startup. From the GRUB loader to the login screen it takes 33.5 seconds. That in itself is incredibly awesome.


I changed my splash screen (what you have to look at between login and the desktop) to this really awesome picture of Blue October.


My graphics card has better support with ubuntu than with windows, and it's only partially supported.


There's a few bugs that need to be fixed, but at least I can fix them, you know what I mean? In windows, if there's a bug, you have to wait for a patch or probably go through some excruciating process if you can actually do it your self.


In other news, finals are coming, Thanksgiving was good, Christmas cards need to been done, I think my dog has arthritis, and I'm behind on everything.


Life is still good.