No Regrets

I was thinking today about how I gradually stopped leaving the house, among other things.

Gradually stopped seeing friends. Stopped seeing family.

Stopped talking to people. 

I can't hide behind the fact I was being driven out of my mind. I could have said something, I suppose. And I know every single person I consider a friend would stand behind me, try and help, and when all else failed, just love me. 

The best I can do during this period, which I fondly think of as Project Rehumanization, is do my best to see the people who's lives and important events I've missed out on. 

Through all of this, thinking of all the things I've missed: my dads wedding, my nieces birthdays, while they are important to me, I have no regrets. I believe every moment in life brings you to where you are, right now. If not for those moments, if not for every single teeny, tiny thing, or huge important thing, I would not be me right now. I'm not sure who I'd be, but, the chance of having less of what I have today isn't worth it. It isn't worth the regret. 

So I have no regrets. I have love, and I have hope that out there now, when I do see the people I love the most, I hope that I find understanding and acceptance.